| tell her she can come back if she gives me my .$25 |
[Jun. 11th, 2005|03:01 pm] |
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i havent updated in forever but its 3 in the mornin i cant watch nemore tv and im not tired soooooooo...i really miss school, well not school but the people more specifically the guys. i dont cry really ever unless im drunk but im just really sad that i dont get to see them, i seriously didnt think id miss them so much. i thought id miss them but not so soon. i guess its understndable i spent 90% of the time i wasnt sleepin or in class with them and sumtimes i had class with them. it just feels like somethin really big is missin. itd almost b better if i just cried about it cause its worse to just b really sad n feel like cryin n not b able to. it only makes it worse that i worry that when i get back it wont b the same. i know it cant b exactly the same but im afraid theyll change or sumthin like that. they were the most amazin guys i dont even know how to discribe it especially since i cant explain nethin coherently. the year went by so fast. i cant believe everythin that happend and how we all wound up. the girls i met through the guys were awsum and i miss them too. and now im home........which is ...idk..i was never stressd at school like i am here..i have to figure something out. party tomorrow perhaps |
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| the songs u grow to like never stick at first |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|02:24 pm] |
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its nights like these that i luv bin here .. i think i have to redevote all or at least most of my time to the 5th floor.. i honestly cant believe how amazing they are.. like i feel like its a dream or that im guna wake up one day or go up there n its guna all change or they are just guna b like we were jkin..i dont even know how to tell them how amazing they are i dont even think its possible to convey how i feel..even the ones im just gettin to know are cool..when i first got here i was flippin out cause i thought single sex floors would b shit but seriously they are the most amazing thing i walk around in a bra change with the door open and occasionaly prance in a thong lol n im not the only one and then even better u go upstairs n its all boy.. i dont think i would have met so many people otherwise..and the girls i meet up there are cool too..idk i just cant believe how amazing the guys are ive been thinkin aobut it for the past couple of days they honestly always make me feel amazin and they are always watchin out for me..so neway this weekend hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..thursday nothin.. friday kapa sig n sober stoppd at ts..saturday crazy enough for the whole weekend..started off early with margaritas kings n watermelon twist, we went over to myles to this guys room LOL i almost deid when i went in hes from the oc so erika knew him even tho cate planned it..so no lights were on except the blacklight LOL i cant even discribe the room it futon highliter fluid idk it was amusing..then we went to a party near bc n i met the HOTTEST kid he goes to umass but i was pretty wasted n they made me leave..then we went to west n i saw a kid from the ski team at lamda chi n like decided i needed to talk to him so i calld him over n then next thing i knew i was bin led into the party lol we lost the boys tho so then there was pnch n then they made me leave again n we went to another party where i made an ass outa myself n felt retarted cuase i hookd up with a kid there so i decided to leave so i used danis fone to call dave who said hed take me home so i leave the house n sumhow find this kid that i ask if he knows dave n he does i think i recognized himas one of his brothers..so neway he takes me to him which was very nice of him since it was sorta outa the way so then we come back to the lovely towers na thats where it all went downhill..i was supposed to watch a movie with dave but i was lockd outa my room..basically wut happend after was not good technically i broke hookup rules i guess..i hookd up with one of the girls xbfs but we rnt really friends sooooooooo.. but the fricken girls on this fin floor r so nosey one of them askd her who he hookd up with n she was like idk i didnt know he did so now shes on like a mission to find out who it was and o yea she took a prgnancy test the other day i was like freakin out it was negative tho..theres like less than a month left as long as noone find out ill b all good..plus we have to live together next year..my whole FUCKIN floor is livin with me next year on the same floor the exact people i was tryin to get away from but w/e breath..so mayb i wont fuck up completly this weekend..at least this fuck up was fun tho lol...and amazingness everything is back to normal perhaps beter than normal with adison n noone knows about that either even tho dorothea almst told his gf which woulda been funny esp when she was tellin me how good of a kisser he is but just bad in general evne tho it was b4 they were goin out...................i have so much work to do its amazin how i find ways never to do it |
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[Apr. 18th, 2005|11:55 am] |
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wut i learned in college.........how to fuck up..i used to do a dam good job b4 but now it seems that i have mastered fuckin up like no other. |
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| the songs u grow to like never stick at first |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|01:31 pm] |
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| | amie what ya wana do? | ] |
things are ok dare i say good now..idk how long this will last hopefully for more than when i write this. so other than my busted ass fd up finger n bruised leg im all good..my dad got me 2 tickets to bamboozle, i no longer have to worry about certain things well at least one major one, i have a shot of bin pulld into shelton, im no longer jealous, ive decided that i have gotten over it n what ever will b will be, i am finally over my crush?..idk my roomate and i are not talkin after the events of this weekend well she talks to me i reply as little as possible..im lookin for a summer job england looks really sketchy so idk wut to do ..i sorta wana wokr at a camp n i sorta wana take classes but idk.. so im guna see the weather is amazin n so is the gym... but i cant go cause i busted my ass n i can barly walk its all together too painful but w/e .. the guys here r so nice its weird..hmmmmmmmmm highs n lows |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|06:51 am] |
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this has been botherin me all day it hit me like a ton of bricks i cant turn 20 n still b a virgin it just cant happen..its abnormal ur supposed to lose ur virginity at like 16 or 17 im already 2 years behind schedule..something has to b done..altho i dont see how nethin can b done but w/e |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2005|01:32 am] |
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i luv canada...i wish home was more like that..so friday after failin a test n doin a shitty ass job on a memo n runnin around tryin to get the fin contract printed i just barly got on the bus. arian got us a cab n we got down to the gsu he had them save 2 seats for us in the back of the bus the place to be lol EVERYONE drank but me lol i didnt wana start the trip off pukin n i thought we were goin out once we got there so i figured id wait. so we were on the bus FOEVER lol but i didndt mind i like drivin. i spent most of the trip next to arian who kept sayin i should go to sleep n pullin my jacket on me like a blanket n then once i was like half asleep hed poke me n be like are u asleep lol it was so funny. at about 3 hrs left i bcame the 3rd wheel, i was on the inside and arianwas next to me then one of the girls hoppd on his lap lol so i climbed over the seat to the row bhind me lol. r room was awsum it was on the 12th floor n had an awsum view. it was late when we got in so we just went to bed the boys decided they didnt want to sleep together nemore b/c that would b weird. i was ok with it tho i got to spoon and such. eventually we went to bed but listenin to arian n dorothea go back n forth was hilarious lol. the boys got up early to ski we stayd at the hotel n slept then got up and ate n then went shoppin for a little i woulda liked to shop more but w/e. so then we went back got ready n watched chicago then the boys got ready and we went to eat with sum other people. we walkd around forever lookin for a place the boys couldnt find nethin that suited them eventually we wound up at this little place it was good we got wine n sparkling wine which was awsum then we went to a bar/club it was fun it was 2$ drinks but i didnt have to buy myself ne. they didnt even card us. then we went back to the hotel. the boys got up early again we slept in ate shopped and went swimmin then we got ready then a big group of us went out to eat to this really good italian place i had awsum chicken parm and wine then we went back to the hotel throught the tunnel(garage lol) and pregamed then we went back out to a club it was fun i got lots of pretty drinks. i also flipp out lookin for dorothea where after a confrontation i found her in the champagne room with sum guy then one of the kids got in a fight n had the canadian cops all over him then we went back to the hotel where we playd roomate switch well i didnt leave but dorothea n vivian switched lol we hit snooze too many times n yet again barely got on the bus then we were on the bus agin forever b/c it was fin snowin again here.. we got back at like 8 n i neglected to study for my econ exam but eh ..everyone was awsum on the trip it makes me wish i could ski or snowboard |
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| aimee im like ur father...matt wut are u sayin!! |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|12:46 pm] |
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i am exhausted.............................................................................. deep breath.................................................so let me just say that today marks my first sober cry at BU and not only did i cry but i sobbed n not only did i sob i did it quite publically right from the gaurd stand up 5 flights of stairs into grahms arms n then matts. they must have thought i was insane since i couldnt tell them why i was cryin, but they didnt care they just tried to calm me down...so lets see yesterday was valentines day, my best ever id have to say n i wasnt even expectin it. i really luv the 5th floor boys n ike idk wut id do with out them. alex sent me an awsum ecard it was so sweet, i think my first not forced not from a girl valentine. arian said he had sumthin for me n to come up to his room after i finished lunch i thought it was ski trip stuff but he pulld out a red rose, my first non dad non prom flower, then later after i got back from my team meetin or shoppin idk i open my door n see a yellow rose on my bed with a card from ike. lol n adison forgot it was valentines day i handed him candy n he was like u just felt like handin out candy i was like no fool lol. so the girls ordered yogurt which camelike forever late but it was awsumly good evn tho i dont believe its fat free. n i went shoppin forgot my credit card so i had to call my mom so she could put it on hers i got 2 pairs of buisness pants n 2 shirts n a pair of shoes. but one shirt had a stain n the other they didnt take off the nogo. so then the excitement of the night i go to procrastinate down the hall n i hear erika sobbin so i knock n go in shes in the dark n she tells me she took more sleepin pills than she should n she wants to die so i call my dad to make sure shell b ok n then i try n calm her down so then i got back to my room eventually n do my work which is never endin i had sooo much to do cause ive been slackin but i get to bed at like 4 then wake up at 745 bring my writin stuff wiht me to lecture so i can go right from lecture to the mall then to class if i have to plus i still had work to do b4 my class in an hr. i was amazingly fast i exchanged the shirt removed the nogo n got a pair of shoes n got back to the dorm all in under an hr. sheckd on erika n went to class so then i get back from classin a rush cause i had sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to do for my presentation noe of which got done. so i go see erika n she tells me she wants her sleepin pills then i go to my room n she comes in not too much later n says to me i really just want to kill myself where can i go i want to go to the hospital which let me tell u are the eriest words sum1 can say to u so i made one of those calls that they tell u too on tv n in school. so then i realize i might not have enough cab fare so i go upstairs like a crazy person n the boys are all gone tom was just leavin so i was like do u have 5$ i can borrow he must have thought i was insane which he didnt so then i wnet to arians room n jon was there n he lent it to me which was awsum so i come back downstairs get erika n leave half in my pjamas lol i musta lookd like a fool my hair was half straightend...watchin me try to get a cab must have been comical actually i know it was cause people in a jeep were laughin at me so neway we get there n erika like disapears so i dont know wut todo so i wait a while but i had to go to my presentation which i felt like shit for leavin but it was a team thing for smg so i walk back to towers when i got here i was a little shaky mayb but i couldnt find my id n the guard was bin a real ass nasty as hell so i start to tell him i had to leave in a rush with out sayin y n then i just start cryin n theres a kid perhaps cute idk standin there n he let me go i had to give him my licence tho so i had to go back down stairs so im sobbin from the front door past the mailroom n the elevators up to the 5th floor the janitor is lookin at me like im insane n all the boys doors are closed but thank god grahm was studyin in the middle he was so sweet he like got up n like hugged me then matt n marlie opend matts door n i went in there n yea i eventually sorta stoppd but not really lol but they didnt know why i was cryin cause i didnt wana say. lol so later i went up atairs n they were all like are u ok n marlie was like i couldnt understand u n then she goes matt told her it was b/c of the gaurd n she was like no i think it was more than thatlol. so i went to my presentation n got bombarded with questions even tho i never askd neone nethin. then after discussion i had a flash assignment but i was so drained i did like crap on it but its like when u work on it for so longu think its good, so im just not guna care about it. i barly finished i got done at like 1154 or sumthin i really didnt think itd take the whole 6 hrs thank god we only have 2 n the2nds a team one. so as it turns out erikas not guna kill herself which is a good thing, she was back here tonight n i got to talk to her after i got to emerge from my room after lockin myself in here for almost 6 hrs. and i got to go upstairs i <3 upstairs i luv the 5th floor |
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[Jan. 24th, 2005|09:15 am] |
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i HATE this place so much i cant even breath i just wana lay in my own fuckin bed but can i no fuckin cates in my bed who the fuck gets in sum1 elses bed o n eats in it too cheetos great yea it is i cant even write im so pissd |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2005|02:32 pm] |
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| | hellogoodbye | ] |
its a new year lol off to a great start (sarcasm much) i cant wait for tuesday tho!!! alex imd me today n said shawn was comin down n that they were guna meet matt in nyc n did i wana come i cant wait to see them...lol n at the same time mike was callin me to ask me to go to nyc to see a concert so after im guna try n meet up with him, i never have any plans y does everythin have to b on the same day..im walkin tomorrow cause i DEFF need to... wednesday i think im guna leave to go see sarah, which im so excited for i think im guna come back saturday to clark ...boring clark where ther is nothin to do ... i didnt think i would but i sorta miss school, well everyone there, i miss goin upstairs n hangon out n talkin n stuff i even call it home when i talk about it... i think im guna go to london lol to look for work for the summer it seems so cool but idk well see |
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[Dec. 27th, 2004|01:30 pm] |
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i miss school well my friends more so then classes but ill get back to school n say i misshome so... ive been listeenin to z100s top songs of the year n so many songs make me think of people n things...im so bord n noones online ... i ate soooo much these past few days n i think its guna b bad the rest of the week i just feel so gross i think im guna ask for a personal trainer im guna say that they r payin for christines modleing school lol n thats gotta b expensive n its along the same lines sorta not really but i can make it happen otherwise i know wutll happen ill gain the freshmen 15 at home...still have no new years eve plans ill probly b sittin here alone or worse with my family but not guna get into that ... i still havent seen sum people which is sorta upsettin but w/e ive been goin to dd alot what a suprise...this is so borin |
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